St Ignorance my blissful promenade
Star gazing in the bask of ambiguity
The freedom of the mindless
Free to explore the dreary
Oh my life my life
One without wisdom or malice
No wonder no rabbit no alice
There is no hole no hope
For I am non bothered by either
For without neither my life is procrastination
My life still is
The alter ego
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Smiley emoticons
Electronic kisses
Alter ego handles
Avatars in sandals
Photoshop and scandals
A poke and a wink
You follow me
I follow you
The inevitable swoon
Throw caution to the moon
Join me on this pontoon
I told a lie but my intention was good. The delayed disappointment my final motive. Emotive no reasoning. The result was more and more emotion. Then the thought kicks in. By then shes hurt. He’s an idiot and he’s an idiot again. I told a lie but my intention was good. A good lie for all the good reasons. But shes hurt. My play was cold and now i fix you.
Switch on the light
Step out the darkness
A fresh breath of reality
Take out the scissors
Cut me a new life lease
Take back yesterday
The future is yet to go
Send me out into the open
Add my wings teach me to fly
I have decided for my life to have some semblance in course that I remove myself from your regard.
The time spent the added flashbacks in memory that seem to rewind themselves with constant playback.
I am minus the usual stop or pause button my minds a puppet at best.
The problem for the mathematician that remains unsolved yet still.
The combination of science and letters chemistry in a lovers note that never delivered.
Solace and solitude in knowing you still breath and your heart still beats.
The distant glimmer of life at a distance too far to reach but offer hope yet still.
Seconds tick away
My life moves ablazay
A heart coasting in the sea
Emotion with davey jones
Time is just time
Ticks and tocks
Really…who needs clocks
Gravity pulled you down. Your the apple in my lap. The sin i am more than wiling to partake. Consequence follows the thrill. Ive never been cautious in my quest. Explore to the edge of the universe. Lets make this intergalactic. Earthly beings transforming into gods. Zeus i would sit aside. You would be my bride. Stolen from another king. A measure of strength. The only thing love is attracted to. The sin i am more than willing to partake. The consequence after the thrill. The heart chose and the mind lost. Lets make this intergalactic.
Slow in your progress
Stop think digress
Too much thought
Too much mind
Just let go and be
Just let go
Be
I wandered into your daydream
Fell into the slip stream
Right intentioned pulled you close
A laugh a smile we turned to bliss
Hurt your heart bruised your soul
Opposites that attracted
No longer being cos we subtracted
My iced emotional presence
The wall I built today I’m in Berlin
Bring back the heat take me to Bern
Pay it forward just say the word
Put in work tomorrow you I will reearn
Undisclosed Desires
Confessions in black and white. My forbidden day dreams at times they haunt me at night. Fantasies of you at dawn as I awake and yawn. Your the vision in my dreams a recuring one it seems. Reality! I wish for you to come true. Reawake my senses and remind me of yesterday. Remind me once again the smell of your scent and feel of your skin. The aura that surrounds everywhere you been. Remind me of when we almost touched but didn’t. Remind me how i needed you to stop fighting but not give in. Oh how I wish I could disclose all this in whispers instead of screams. Just stay awake and not look forward to my dreams. I’m just glad you have a smile to die and wake up for.
Almost impossible to find she’s the symbol that is pure love. A petaled rebirth of a former thorn that used to be now the opposite. Signifying uniqueness and a radiance unparalleled by no other. Yet some see her as dark and bleak but I differ thats why I speak. With the hope that my words will be the ones that make her bloom. Reach out for the skyline and scream out as though she touched the moon. But words is all they are by definition because her design surpasses anything I could ever say, encouragement I could ever bring. She’s strong even when the howling wind makes her sway. She’s weathered the storm and come out the other side. I find beauty in her simplicity, inspiration in her everlasting, she makes me draw appeal. Very few understand her make up, the potted difference that surrounds her. A world that requires more just like her. She makes me want to peel off her layers and delve deeper into her core. But for now i’d like to just sit here in awe and stare at her. For I know there’s more days of bloom to come and petal by petal, my days they remain scented.
As I dwell to not dwell I find myself proscrastinating on what could have been rather than what will be. The journey of a thousand thoughts. The imaginations of imaginings I’m back to square one never really moved an inch but I’ve been as far as my mind can take me.
I thought about you today
A lil more than I would
And I wondered if I should
Pictured all the things I could
But I guess it’s just the distance inbetween
It’ll make you stop and pause for a moment
With eyes the window to the soul. I’ve got yours and you’ve got mine. I see you and you see me. I possess your heart and you own mine. My equivalent and my soulmate. Mellifluously interwined, I made you feel different. Patience is just a matter of time.
You taste his lips he taste yours
A familiar flavour to your palate
The adrenaline to you he’s a rush
Like the poison in a serpent’s viens
Intoxication you afraid of but the high u need
You beg him stop but inside u scream don’t
This road leads to only one destination
The hotel heartbreak the deluxe suite
Dripping champagne bottles like the pleasure off your axis
A potent cocktail of selfish greed and human need
A fight you lost the second you stepped in the ring
Guilt was never a part of this menu
Fighting your existence on a daily
It’s too current too vivid too early
Breaking free is like a leap of faith
Straight into the unknown
You can’t speak your heart screams
You need him he needs you
The guilty conscious the strangle hold
Tugging between right and whose right
The borderline to your pursuit
Will you find he who that suits
Or maybe you already have
Admittance is like a pass
Are you in the bleechers
Or are you in the box
You choose!
You look at pounds the years have added to your figure
The third love handle in a week you need a suitor
Reminisce on days gone by the sizes before you sigh
A glance in the mirror am I the same you ask
The mirror lets u see what you want when to take it to task
Bright and shiny inside you are
A spectacle of the greatest sorts
The voltari need not see or you’ll be done for
Instead your the mirror and it’s looking at you
Wishing it shed the pounds and speckled like you do
Now whose self conscious I wonder
A masterpiece of time and piece
A wet pleasure on a white sheet
Parting lips reveal more than just one fantasy
Conjure more than one fear and devour a legacy
A deep caress of the most tender nature to pause time
Unlocking and revealing hightened notes of fluttery
In flight turbulence a guaranteed plus
Arrivals at destinations without borders or check in points
The ride of your life your chasing the very first high
Hello curiosity
Communication my form of touch
I struck a cord in your ear drum
Added an extra high note to your heartbeat
Divided the distance in between us
Multiplied the words in our conversation
Remote controlled your goose bumps
Rewound your mind and played it back to you
I wanna take the future make it the present
Take the past and leave as it is
Turn curiosity into something more
Steal the smile off your lips and turn it into my sunshine
Then borrow a second from your day and replace it with my forever
Summer on the prescimice of winter
Potting plants in the middle of June
Singing lullabys hoping I see you soon
Falling leaves autums rustic splinters
The back and forth sways of airy spring
All the things that remind me of our hearty fling
A procrastinated affair of tugs and wars
My hearts lust for love and something from above
An apple it can never taste and sin it can never confess
I’m at my wits end and their at theirs
The age of denial and the season of heartache
The infatuated heartbreak
My life
Feels like a book with 31 pages
3 chapters 4 paragraphs minus a fullstop
Lines and words fill the cracks within the creases
What separates everything else is
The breaths I take the smiles i make
The tears that wet the page as it turns
A tale of the past present and an ambition filled
TO BE OR NOT TO BE!
Like a play unfit for the queen
But perfect for the private screen
A pauper a jester on a string
I am my own masters twisted fling
A slave to my dna my genetic mismakeup
The minus fullstop
A year apart nothings changed still
The past come full circle now its the present
12 months of sorrow cant even crack a smile
Try to mend the pieces fix them glue together
Piece by piece but still nothing feels right
I’m still broken i cant find the right glue
Or i just cant find the missing piece
The one that can make me whole again
I’m stuck in transit and cant catch my connection
The departure lounge that is my sorrow
Tried to retrace my step roll back to this exact moment
All i see is just tall grass and a foreign land
An alien in my own world your world
This is what it feels like when life happens
I’m still broken……………still
Dedicated to my mum…R.I.P
The lust in her loins
Like a slot machine for coins
Should i pull the lever and feed her need
A mechanical rush coupled with incredible speed
Watch as the bars pop up one two three then four
Racey nerves sweaty palms quivering legs set on the floor
A roulette of spinning deceit and a bet set on the number 13
I’m her black jack the dealer with the number 21 and I’m set in
Green tabled guilty pleasures all these white chips only amount to half her sins
Spaceships and lasers
Aliens with antennas
Probes and cathode tubes
Robots with lucid moves
Intergalactic relations
Planetary interventions
Electronic heart winders
Emotional stop minders
Plutorian love stories
Mercurian pimpgigolos
Earthly heartbreakers
Sex in silver canisters
Cloned cybertrackers
Action time warpers
Folded space time
Quick in a flash
Without a trace
My past is gone
